But that's not the stuff you want to read about now is it? Unless you have a baby who isn't sleeping. And in that case- rest assured- I have an 11 MONTH old that isn't sleeping (cough cough AMANDA!) Misery loves company. So know that you have company if you are awake in the middle of the night. Join me in Words With Friends or Dice with Buddies :)
Lots, and I mean LOTS has happened in month 10-11. We are walking. We have been to the beach. We have been to the pumpkin patch. We have given our Halloween Costume a test drive. Okay okay.. a couple pictures just to prove it!
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| At Lifetime Fitness Halloween Party! |
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| Nothing like the beaches in Destin! |
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| Just hunting for pumpkins! |
Bekham is at a wonderful phase in his little life. He is so fun right now. Into everything, YES. Throwing tantrums, YES. Clingy, YES. Chronically sleep deprived, YES. Injury prone, YES.
BUT
Laughs with abandon, YES. Rough houses with me, YES. Walks to me with arms outstretched, YES. Lays his head on my shoulder when he needs a little rest, YES. Bangs any two items he can find together and make noise, YES. Laugh at himself, YES. Eat, and enjoy, new foods, YES.
We have so much fun together. His absolute favorite things right now are to
1. Be outside
2. "Woof" when he hears dogs
3. "Roar" when he sees his Grammie or Grampie to get their attention
If Bekham had a crib outside, I'm pretty sure he'd sleep through the night. I'm not exaggerating. I should have tried it while we were at the beach with an enclosed balcony! It's absolutely insane to me that in about a month, I really can't call my sweet boy a baby anymore. He is growing up, but entirely too fast. He's toddling... so I guess that qualifies him as a toddler. It's a transition that is great in so many ways, but that my heart grieves in other ways. The days of just holding him while he sleeps are few and far between. The days of me being his primary source of life (nutrition) are coming to a close. All good things, but all things that pull at my heart. How do parents send their kids off to college?? I was talking to a friend of mine who said she loves her little boy so much it hurts. And thats so true. Sometimes it physically does hurt to not be able to fully express my love towards Bekham. He would be irritated if I kissed him and hugged him and held him every moment I wanted him to know how much I love him. But my heart just overflows for this kid. Thank you Lord for this blessing.
Something I learned at my Bible Study yesterday was that, "I am not a perfect mom. But I'm the perfect mom for Bekham (or perfectly suited for Bekham.)" God ordained all of my days before I was born. And Bekham was written into those days long before he came to be. It was so great to truly rest in the promise that no one could be a better mom to Bekham than I could. Yes I will make mistakes and no I'll never be the perfect mom, but God planned the relationships between us and no one was better suited that me. I so needed this encouragement. Its easy to look left and right and think that someone else is doing a better job. Instead I need to shift my focus UP and know that God has fully equipped me to do this job as long as I am daily seeking Him and asking for His wisdom in each and every situation.
The countdown is on. 31 days until I am the mother of a 1 year old. Time, please slow down!
